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The Eternal Debate: Strength and/or Technique

19 Aug

I know this is a very complicated debate, but I’d like to take a reasonable approach that might open up some understanding and dialog about training.  There is so much in the conversation that I would like to add that I will split this up into a few different blogs.  I will start with the idea of what is most  important and why, next I will talk about how this applies to training, and finally how I see it going into training (taking into consideration gender and athletes’ abilities).  I am very open to questions and comments and encourage those  who read it to keep the dialog going.

Loree doing DB OH Push Press

Just getting my workout on

First thing is first.  Let’s just understand the fact that different things work for different athletes because, well, they are different.  Also, some athletes succeed BECAUSE of the system and some athletes succeed DESPITE the system they are using.  So, we cannot simply say that one training system is good because so and so did well or because it worked for someone and didn’t work for someone else.  With that behind us, we will also look at cause and effect because I feel like in the great debate this can sometimes be confused.

My order of important whether you are a beginning thrower to even the most experienced thrower is first  technique, then specific strength, and finally general weight room strength.  Sometimes people confuse this argument for saying that strength isn’t necessary or important, it is import.  I’m not arguing that.  My stance is the order of importance and thus my personal beliefs for the focus of training.

What Are We Really Trying To Do With Training:

The point of training whether it’s sprints, lifting, throwing, drills, whatever, is trying to make our bodies perform optimally to maximize our competition.  Of course all coaches want this, but how we go about this is all different.  I’d like to focus on the key word optimum, not to be confused with maximum.  We want maximum performance, yes, but we must train our bodies optimally.

Why Optimum and Not Maximum?

We want to maximize our results, and ultimately maximize ourselves as athletes; however, throwing isn’t about extreme maximums in athleticism.  If you look at athletic fitness as a triangle with the corners being three extremes or maximums of maximum strength, maximum speed, and maximum endurance, you will see all sports fall somewhere inside (the difference being how each are utilized).  The closer you get to one edge the further you go from others.  Just like an endurance runner training for maximum endurance cannot also train for maximum strength, we as throwers cannot train for maximum strength and risk losing other tools we need.  Throwers are not maximum strength athletes, we need speed, explosiveness, flexibility, rhythm, and finesse.  I think finesse is one of the keys. It’s that magic touch of the scrawny kid that keeps the meat heads scratching their noggins on how they got their butts handed to them.  If we train maximum strength, we could lose those abilities.

Not only that, but we only have so much energy and time in a day to devote to training.  These time and energy systems must be split up wisely, focusing on the most important things in the athlete, in order to prepare the body optimally.  Sure drugs let some athletes push boundaries and recover where us honest athletes cannot, so let’s forget that the meat head mentally of being tired is weakness and pushing through until you pass out in everything.  Pretend that all athletes are a glass of water, a finite amount, and training is like puring water into containers.  How much should be poured into which containers to get the best throw ?  I know there aren’t many athletes out there who haven’t experienced over-training, just giving too much and not having enough.  And all athletes have experienced that on harder lifting days, throwing may suffer.  And on harder conditioning days, lifting may suffer.  On harder throwing days, other training may suffer.  Therefore training smarter is always better than just training harder.  (i.e. Understanding and focusing on the most important things will build better results than just working really hard on everything hoping something will work.)

Why Technique is Most Important:

Efficient technique is the device we use to put ourselves into our throw.  It takes all of our strengths (speed, strength, etc) and puts it into the throw.  The more efficient the technique the more of our strengths are utilized.  Just that simple.  If you have a thrower who can fake strength number is 500lbs but has 80% efficiency in technique, he will be better than the athlete who is 500lbs but only has 70% efficiency.  Both athletes may be on the same level physically, but technically the other athlete will win out.  I know it’s simple, but it illustrates a point.

Getting strong is easier, so that’s why people focus on it, especially in younger throwers.  However, it’s not smarter.  I will go into more depth on this in my next blog, but realize the strength you can add is very finite.  It’s like a sprinter taking off in the first lap of the 5,000m.  Sure, you’ll stay ahead for the first lap, but eventually, you’re gonna get tired.

But more of the reason why focusing on adding strength and maximizing that is because YOU CAN ONLY USE THE STRENGTH AND SPEED THAT YOU CAN USE.  What does this mean?  It means if you can’t use the strength and speed you’re working so hard to get, then it is useless.  The only good speed and strength is that in which you can use in the throw, anything else is just taking time and energy (and may even prove detrimental if it changes your timing, lose flexibility, slows you down, etc.)

That brings us back to why technique is most important: because not only does it allow you to use the gifts of yourself as an athlete the most efficiently, it also allows you to use your added strength and speed into the throw as well.  Without proper technique, the added strength and speed is useless.

Loree carefully selecting a kettle.

Me choosing my torture device of kettle bells.

Specific Strength over Weight Room Strength:

So we’ve established, and hopefully you’ve followed, why technique is so important both for using the gifts you have and being able to use the abilities (strength, speed, explosiveness) you add as you train.  But let’s talk now about specific strength.  For this argument, I am calling specific strength any athletic abilities used specifically and only for the throw (so that can be speed, explosiveness, strength, etc).

How many Olympic lifters and Professional Power lifters are also top level, Olympic throwers?  Anyone?  A few sneak in there?  While these athletes are amazingly talented within the realms of their sport, it doesn’t translate over exactly.  People argue how important strength is in throwers (and yes, top level athletes are very strong, but they forgot our cousins who are even stronger are not!)

But this is because while they are strong, they are not throwing strong (and yes, I realize they are not throwers and don’t have the technique either.)  But the strength we have as throwers is a different strength, I call hammer strong or specific strength, and that doesn’t always come from a bar.

Where does specific strength come from?  Yes, we utilize strength in our throws from our traditional US strength methods of lifting in the weight room such as bench, squat, cleans, snatch, etc.  But that’s only taking parts and pieces of athleticism and making it into something else.  Specific strength can and does come from actual throwing.  You use all the muscles you need in throwing during throwing and while you are training, you are building up those specific muscles.  That easy. lol.  Throwing is training not only technique, but the body to handle the pressures of throwing.  You can add heavier or lighter implements to add to the resistance or challenge the body and therefore build the specific strength.  You can also use specific strength exercises to build these too such as puds, Med balls, plates, plyos and anything you use to reenact parts of the throw to strengthen the movement.

This is one area I think we as Americans can do a better job on.  I’ve heard the excuse that athletes don’t throw heavier implements because they can’t handle it and can’t keep their technique together…  Hmm, so you won’t train to strengthen a movement you know translate exactly what you need, but you’ll keep pushing the athlete to break that 300lbs bench that may or may not translate into the throw?

We are a country of instant gratification, we lift, we get strong.  We see that, we can measure that.  We can’t always see the changes and abilities added through specific strength (well, eventually when you have that new PR).

I know that adding weight on the hammer isn’t easy and kids do want to use different muscles, may drag, or generally look like crap.  That’s okay, that’s why it’s called practice.  But it’s important to understand why you are using the training method and be rigid on your expectations of the drill.  Having someone use a heavy implement incorrectly could just take away from the technique.  More on this later.

The top throwers in the world are the “strongest” in their events in terms of relevancy.  I’ve seen athletes do specific strength exercises that our 700lbs squatters wish they could do.  I’ve trained a lot of different systems over the years and know the difference between feeling throwing strong and weight room strong.  Sometimes the throwing strong and weight room strong are similar, and sometimes I’m throwing strong and my weight room numbers are not and sometimes I’m weight room strong, but don’t feel throwing strong.  2009 when I PR’d, I lifted in my main season in the weight room 2x a week, but I did puds and heavy hammers and my strength levels were at the best they’ve ever been in hammer and pretty darn high for traditional lifts.  In 2005 when I broke the collegiate record, I had a stress fracture for two years and was only able to lift and train at a small percentage in the weight room but could still do heavy hammers, puds, core, etc.  I’m not saying weight room isn’t important, I’m explaining that everything is important… but some more than others.

Specific strength, the strength we actually use in throwing is more important than traditional weight room strength because it also highlights another aspect of throwing, release velocity or speed.  It is training the body for what it does best, to hold positions and then to transfer energy quickly.  If we have the ability to lift heavy weights but lack the ability to transfer it quickly, it can’t be used.  That plain and simple. Any weight we continue to lift that is unable to be used in the time we need is simply taking away from our energy and time period.  That is why you see some systems that take this to the extreme where they almost never go extreme in weights but focus more on the speed of lifting.  Not saying this is perfect, just opening up dialog.

So, specific strength is very important in throwing.  It helps us hold positions we need to have good technique, it helps strengthen the muscles we use for throwing, and it helps teach us to transfer that strength quickly.  Sometimes people use the argument that the top level athletes are very weight room strong and we’ve heard the numbers they’ve supposedly done.  But ask yourself.  Did that athlete do that crazy clean because his specific strength is off the charts or is it the other way around?  I think when you think about it, you’ll see one transfers to the other one a lot easier than the other way round.

Weight Room Strength: Useless Then?

Oh weight room strength, have I hurt your ego too much?  When I speak of weight room strength, I speak of bench, squat, rows, lunges, etc.  (Olympics for me fall somewhere in the middle, but I count them a little closer to weight room).  They do have a place in throwing and I am in no way saying to get rid of them.   They provide a valuable service just like any other training and are necessary.

Weight room training is a foundation of strength and fitness.  It is the general strength that sets the foundation on which all else is built.  It helps build up opposing muscles to help keep the body fit and healthy.  Any athlete can tell you about the increase of injuries when the body becomes too specialized.  It helps build coordination, kinesthetic awareness, flexibility, balance, and general athleticism.   During certain parts of the season, I even think it should play a larger role than others.  Smart coaches can even use traditional methods of getting strong in the weight room and make it event relevant or specific and I commend their efforts because it is more effective.

It does help build strength and strength is important, but keep in how mind how much of that strength you can actually use.  If you can’t use it, then it is useless.  If you need more strength, then get more strength.  There is more than one way to get strong and we as Americans in our throwing systems already know very well how to do it.  So in this blog, I will not being giving any suggestions. It’s easier to add weight room strength than technique.  Not easier in that you don’t have to work very hard physically, I just know the perfection and dedication of countless moves to change technique is harder than pushing your body to get that last rep…

So yes, the weight room is important, but just like all the other parts of training, it has its place.

So What Is the Conclusion?:

Basically we know that all parts are important in training, but there is only so much time and energy that can be devoted to each.  It’s not a cop out in the debate, but simply saying they each have their place and focus.  I have differing beliefs of how much should be devoted to each depending on the event, gender, age, and athlete.  But that’s what a good program should do, bring in all of these different aspects.

So the next blog I will go into this a little more.  Please, share your comments, questions, whatever.  I could write for pages on this, so obviously I’ve not gone into the depth I could in each section.

Hope training is going well!

 
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If You Don’t Know Where You’re Going, You’ll End Up Somewhere Else

31 Jul
A simple enough thing  to say, but completely true.  I truly believe that it doesn’t matter the path you take to get somewhere or the place you even start, as long as you are headed in the right direction.  But occasionally in life, if you don’t recognize your surroundings, you should pull over on the side of the road and recheck your map.  (I love a good metaphor!)
Loree winning in Slovenia

Showing off my gold in Slovenia

Sometimes we arrive at points in our life that seem like randomness or accidents, serendipity or just plain coincidences.  But really everything we do, every decision we’ve made has led us to the people we’ve met and the things that have happened.  Everything has led to this exact moment.  Thinking about how fragile the future can really be when knowing everything leads to something else, is humbling.  One tiny difference, as insignificant as the type of shoes we choose to wear on a Sunday two years ago may have resulted in the home we live in today.

Loree standing at Closing Ceremonies in Beijing, China

Celebrating the closing ceremonies at the Beijing Olympics

The past month I’ve been doing some traveling and with this extra time a lot of thinking.  I guess that’s the sort of thing you do when you’ve had a rough year, lots of time, and are closely approaching an age related milestone and accomplished little in the sense of things you are suppose to have done by then.

Perhaps that’s the planner and worrier in me and perhaps it’s just the realistic part of me that looks at where I’m at, where I came from, and where I want to be.  I don’t have a house, no IRA’s, savings account is now at $0 :) , everything I own fits in my car, no husband or significant other.  lol  Actually I have less earthly possessions than when I graduated college.

However, I’m still pretty damn content with a lot of things in my life and where I am.  I can honestly say that almost everything good that has ever happened to me or good people that I have met, I have met and done through track and field.  No exaggeration.  Just real.  And I am so thankful that me doing what I love to do has brought me so much happiness (not so thrilled about the suckiness, but it evens out.)  I can count on my hand the number of people who I know will always care for me and I can always trust and most of them I have met because of the path that I am on.

Loree Smith driving in car across country

This is me on my way across the country with everything I own moving to AZ for training.

This past month since USA championships, I did some traveling.  It was the first time, in a long time, that I actually did it for me.  I’ve given so much to hammer, I really needed to give something back to myself.  I needed time to breathe, to think, to remind myself of who I am and why I do what I do.  It has nothing to do with quitting, but everything to do with continuing.  So sorry to any girl that had her eye on my Olympic spot or Olympic medal… it’s already spoken for.

I was able to go and visit Crystal, Kibwe, and Sultana in Kamloops, BC a few weeks ago.  It was nice just sitting with friends, speaking the same language, sharing our very similar desires out of life, concerns, but also very similar roads we travel.  They know what it’s like to struggle in hammer, in life, in things and they also share the drive I have and are being rewarded for theirs with their success.

I flew down to New Orleans and was able to see the Gulf Oil Spill disaster.  It makes me feel good to be a part of something bigger than myself.  It makes me feel good to be able to give back.   The athletes I met on that trip were amazing and kind, it was good to get out there and work together on something so important.

I also got to go back home to Colorado to my family…more of this in a bit.  But I went hiking/backing packing over the continental divide with my best friend, Melissa.  Her and I have known one another since high school where we were rivals in every sport, every position, to becoming teammates at CSU, to now becoming this awkward adulthood that we are still trying to figure out.  Being out in the wilderness (tired and bitten by bugs!) just her and I getting caught up on life, on one another, helped me to remember there are those people who care about me before the hammer and will still care about me long after I’ve put away my glove…

Melissa and Loree Smith hiking in Rocky Mountains

Mel and I right before crossing the continental divide. I can tell it's before because we are still smiling.

Going back home also brought me back to my family.

It’s no secret that I don’t come from a privileged home, but I don’t let it bother me or ask for sympathy.  Perhaps that harder upbringing has led me here (certainly has prepared me for living on a female American thrower’s salary. lol).  Perhaps it is the underachieving legacy of those before me that fuels my desire for success, keeps me from quitting when that seems like the easiest thing to do.  It could bother me that I was told “I think I’m too good” for my family because I went to school and desired to want more out of life.  It could bother me I feel resented for leaving.   I could be sad knowing they tell me I’m not doing anything with my life because I don’t measure success in dollars signs.  It could hurt that the only time it seems that they ask about track is to inquire when I’ll be finished.  But maybe that’s what will drive me to medal stand, and wearing something shinny around my neck would put a smile on my face.

Sports has done a lot for my life.  Staying in sports encouraged me to get good grades in school, when I could have gone the other way…  A partial sports scholarship opened the way for a college education, making me the first person in my family to attend college and get my degree.  I’ve traveled across the US and around the world through hammer experiencing places and cultures that I would have never dreamed.

Hammer taught me goal setting and achieving, hard work, and always wanting more.  I come from a place where little is handed to you, a tradition of fear of trying for more, and of settling for what is given.  And yet, started from that place, I set out on some of the hardest demands and highest goals leaving “good enough” and “content” far behind.

Loree is numero uno

My BF in college made me this before I won my NCAA championship

But the curse of wanting more is always wanting more.  Despite breaking the collegiate record and winning a championship, winning Gold in NACAC, and even making the Olympic team, I still want more.  I still drive to be the American record holder and an Olympic medalist.  Why?  Because that’s the hardest thing I can do, but mostly because I believe I can and said I would.  Where I am from will not stop me from where I am going.  The number of people believing in me will not deter how much I believe in myself.

I know where I’m going and that’s the first and most important step of getting to where you want to be.

London 2012 logo

Going for Gold in London

 

Oil Disaster: Athletes Reaching Out

15 Jul

Some may not understand what the whole project going on in the gulf with athletes really was.  Basically a few organizations got together working with the Sierra club to help spread awareness not only the distruction caused by the Oil, but also in the communities, and what that means for the future of the U.S.  As they explained it, coming from credible sources, coming from respected people, coming from those who are valued members of their community could better help spread awareness and not be dismissed as a radical environmentalist.

Loree riding fishing boat in front of oil

Loree riding riding in fishing boat exploring the oil spill 80 miles inland.

I was asked during an after interview if I thought of myself as an environmentalist.  I smiled and wanted to spin some lie.  Unlike many of the athletes there, this was my first real effort with an environmental issue and I had no ties or work with foundations promoting green products.  So I answered, no.  I called myself the average American.  I did this because I didn’t want to be demonized nor do I feel “average” people like me should be.  I recycled when it was convenient, I tried not to be wasteful, but I really didn’t go out of my way other than a few CFL light bulbs.

But this trip really changed me in a lot of ways.  Not only did I see the destruction, some of which is irriversible and some that will last for generations, but I also got to see a small piece of a bigger pictures.

You guys, this is scary stuff.  I’ll go into the breakdown of the trip with what I saw, what I learned, and post up some pictures.  But before I do, I’ll leave you with a parting thought.  The whole time I was down there, learning about what we were putting into the ocean, doing in there, taking out with our “out of sight, out of mind” mentality I kept coming back to the thought of reaping what we sow.

You look at the destruction, the saddness, not from just an environmental standpoint, but a human one.  You ask yourself, “how could this happen?”   Then you look at the 10,000 oil rigs in the gulf alone and realize, how could we think it wouldn’t?

I am reminded of the message in the bottle.  We take a message, place in the bottle, and throw it in the ocean to wash up and be discovered, our voice heard by strangers in another land, maybe another time.  Well, I wonder, what is the message that we are seeing washed up on our shores?  What are we saying?  And what are we hearing?

Amazing Group:

There was a wide variety of athletes and people volunteering their time for this.  The Sierra Club, Sierra Foundation memebers, and Athletes for Hope were also there volunteering their time and helping organize this trip.  The athletes on this trip included:

Mike Richter, NHL –New York Rangers Goalie & Winter Olympics (x3)
Mike Alstott , NFL Fullback from Tampa Bay Buccaneers
Leilani Munter, ARCA/NASCAR
Andrew Ference, NHL, Boston Bruins
Krista Bradford Ference, X game snowboarder
Ovie Mughelli , NFL Fullback for the Atlanta Falcons
Stacey Cook, U.S. Alpine Ski Team (2006 and 2010 Winter Olympics)
Gary Morgan, Track & field (1988 Olympics and 17 national titles)
Chanda Rubin, Tennis (former #6 in the world)

I just want to say as a side note, that these are some amazing people.  Their passion for their causes is very powerful.  They are friendly, informed, passionate.  You can see the same passion that has driven them as athletes propelling them in making this earth a little better than when they found it.

What We Did/What We Saw:

The main focus of this trip was to give us a first hand experience at seeing what was happening with the oil spill, the destruction of the shores, but also on a personal level what it was doing to the community, their jobs, and their families.  We were also able to witness some of the clean up and prevention efforts.

Loree standing in front of the Myrtle Grove Marina

This is me before we set out on our 5 hours tour leaving from the Myrtle Grove Marina. The local fishermen are forced to find work this way being unable to fish in the waters.

We met on the docks of the Myrtle Grove Marina to start our journey.  The marina is about an hour drive from New Orleans, and on the way Darrell from the Sierra club points out interesting facts about the city, Katrina, local issues they have been working on, including the disappearance of the wetlands, and even points out the massive oil refineries we pass along the way.

We split into groups in the different fishing boats.  The weather is nicer on the water with a cool breeze to take your mind off the huminity and heat.  We meet our Captain, Captain Mike a local fisherman, and ask him questions about what he’s seen and his opinion.

The fishermen are in a strange state at the moment.  The spill has been going on some 83 days.  They are past shock, horror, anger, and they just want it to be over.  They want answers and are tired.  He feels decisions are being made for profit and not what is best for the people.  But he is friendly and shares different things with us.

As we travel through the canals and different areas, I see many amazing things.  I’ve never seen such a careful balance between wildlife and human life.  We see houses perched on small islands of land, a few feet of stilts keeping it from resting in the water.  We learn that the wetlands, the area we are driving through, is in a dangerous position and is disappearing at 1 football field a minute due to erosion, most of it human.  We learn because of the disappearing wetlands, the hurricanes are more devistating.  We see these houses and know in a few years, they will under the water.

Typical fishing and camp house in the wetlands

This is one of the many camp and fishing houses we saw on the canal

We know that we are some 80 miles inland from the actually spill.  Seeing the endless stretches of oil over the ocean is very moving, but seeing how far reaching the destruction is and seeing what is at stake is moving as well.  After a few minutes we see the canals are lined with this floating white material called “boom.”  It is set up to catch the floating oil before getting into the wetland grasses.

I don’t want to be a pessimist, but it seems like trying to bail out the boat with a tea cup.

Along the way we pass by one of the stations BP has set up to help with the clean up efforts.  Captain Mike shares with us that most of the workers are local fishermen and that is all the work they can get.  They take the boom organize it, line the grasslands, collect the used one, and dispose of it.  There are also the unused fishing boats used to siphon the oil on the top of the water.

I guess one of the biggest problems is BP is using dispersant to break up the oil.  It looks like a good thing because you don’t see the floating oil, but all it does is break up the oil and it sinks under the surface.  It is frightening to think about the things we don’t see.  There are large patches of water we pass of a murkiness that I am informed is the dispersant.

Picture of BP clean up station along canal

This is one of the BP clean up stations. There was a sign that cleverly called it BoomTown as the booms are what is used to separate the grass from the oil...hopefully.

The images that you see just keep moving you.  We pass by and see the oil that has made it past the flimsy booms into the wetlands destroying it forever.  A wetlands that is already in danger doesn’t stand a chance.  We see the efforts being made, but just don’t seem good enough.

Picture of some of BP Oil disaster

Here is an up close look at the oil in the wetlands. This is just what we can see. These wetlands that are affected are lost forever.

Picture of the Pelican nesting grounds on Cat Island

The only thing stopping the oil from reaching this natural nesting ground is this orange boom and the currents.

I have so many more pictures and observations, but just wanted to give you an up close look at what happened down there and is continuing to happen.

Why is that important?  Why should be care?  Because this earth is ours and it’s the only one we have.  We have the technology and the know how to change this, to be better.  We need to know every decision we makes effects this world and everyone in it.

I found out an amazing fact that only 10-20 percent of the crude oil in these wells actually goes to car use.  Most of it is by products like plastics!  Imagine if we just cut back on water bottles, how much we could save!

This isn’t just an environmental issue, it’s a people.  Look how many people are out of work, it will take generations to recover.  This also is a matter of national security.  There are over 10,000 wells in the Gulf and this is all from just 1!

I’m reminded of when they were getting us ready for Beijing, talking about the pollution we would expect.  It was offered for us to train in more polluted environments or perhaps even run in traffic breathing in car fumes!  I know it sounds crazy, but that is what we are asking of ourselves.  We are saying to just adapt to the pollution, to what is happening.   When are we going to say, no?  When are we simply going to look for solutions?

I guess that’s the message I wanted to say about my trip.  What I got out it?  I’m not a radical still, but I am a realist.  I don’t think anyone can go down there and see what is really happening and not be moved in some way.

“When faced with the choice of doing something and doing nothing, I will always choose to act.”

 

Gulf Coast: Why am I here?

13 Jul

Short Note:  Yes, I’m Alive

So, I started to put up a few blogs to talk about my season and I’ve never finished a thought or didn’t like the direction it was going.  I stopped either because I wasn’t ready to share that part of me.  I stopped because I wasn’t ready to acknowledge some of my feelings or deal with them.  And I stopped because I just couldn’t simplify into words the complex emotions I was feeling.  I’m working on a draft and will put it up in a few days talking about my training, my feelings of the season, and my thoughts for the next year.  (I got quite a few emails from people wanting a personal explanation of my 61m throw at nationals and my less than spectacular season.  Believe me, no one wants more or deserves more an explanation of that than me.  When I know the answer, you’ll know the edited answer.  :)

Why Am I Here?:

Loree looking out window over city

This is me looking out my window over the city after dinner.

Putting all that to the side, I find myself here.  I am in Louisanna volunteering with Athletes For Hope www.athletesforhope.org  and Sierra Club to see and talk about first hand what damage the BP oil disaster has done.

But what brings me out here?  Am I an environmentalist or eco activist?  No not really.  I recycle when it is convenient and try not to be too wasteful, but nothing out of the ordinary and certainly have never volunteered my time to anything in this fashion before.  Have I followed the news about the oil spill and was so moved with what I could do, that I came here?  No, sure I’ve seen things, but no more than the few seconds on the television or in passing in conversation to agree with more should be done to stop it.

I came out here because I was looking for something that wasn’t track to focus on, but what I found was something more.  When the email was sent out looking for athletes to come out to coast to tour the disaster and share, I signed up immediately.  I wanted to focus on a different disaster that wasn’t my life.

I’m not going to lie.  I’m lonely in Arizona.  I miss the friends, “family,” and life I had just begun getting accustomed to in Oregon.   In AZ at the end of the day, all I had was track and she’s not the most reliable of friends.  I have no close friends in Arizona, no one to talk to.  I have no family there and if any of you knew me, you’d know how difficult this year has been for me and my family.  (For those who don’t know, it’s because I’ve chosen not to discuss it.)  If I were to really need someone, if I was stranded, I don’t have that go to friend who I could count on, that I know would be there.  I don’t have that someone who just likes hanging out with you because of you.  All I had was a hammer…. that wasn’t flying very far!

It was just a hard year physically, mentally, emotionally.  I won’t act like it wasn’t.  I’ve never felt more far away and more alone, like a buoy in the middle of the ocean with wave after wave crashing down on me.  Living off the kindness of friends, grant money from USATF, and a small insurance settlement, I didn’t even have the distraction of work (not that I had time).  It was just me.

So, like I said, I came out because I had decided to end my season after my last meet on Friday (though I won’t count that one.  Let’s end it on the meet I had on Monday where I threw my 2nd best throw of the year without training or practice lol)  I thought it would be interesting and take my mind off things.  I could get out of Arizona, breathe, and just do something positive.

But before I came out, I started researching, reading about the disaster.  I started looking at not only what it was doing to Louisianna, but the rest of the US, the world.  I started to learn what it was doing to the people who not only had to deal with the loss of their jobs, but how it affected families for generations to come.

Today when we came out here, we met for a dinner to talk a little bit more about why we were here.  It was nice to meet the different athletes from sports such as skiing, NASCAR, hockey, track, tennis, etc.  Each person had their different reasons for being here.  We also got to meet the faces of the people it was affecting too.  Each one sharing their stories, stories that may not have been sensational enough to make the news, and stories that were the same for entire communities for years to come.  I am just beginning to understand the scope of things, not only here with this, but with everything.

picture of dinner

A little local fare, steam mussels

Sometimes we feel so small and insignificant, we feel so alone, but really we’re not.  We are all connected on this green and blue ball of ours and even when we get so caught up in our own little life, realize that there are other things affecting that ball and affecting us.

Today a gentleman presented at dinner speaking on behave of the Vietnemesse people/ fishermen who are being affected.  He spoke passionately for about ten minutes pointing out how putting a man out of his work changes everything and affects everyone in his family for possibly generations.  There was another gentleman speaking of his city and the hardships they are still dealing with Katrina and now what they are facing with the oil spill and the aftermath that will be here long after it isn’t new enough to put on the news.

I watched and I listened.  When their eyes fell on mine, I swelled with a feeling of owing something to them.  They were asking for our help, my help.  Could me being here help that boy with his family?  Could something I say really help change drilling regulations?

There are athletes here who have been using their careers and free time for years to do things for the environment, belonging to many different organizations, volunteering time and money to different causes, and read up on all the latest things.  Next to them, I feel humbled.  I feel… is it guilt… maybe… I feel like I should be doing more.

Track is made up of a sport of individualist.  It is a sport where the team does not decide your results.  It is made up of I’s.  This can be a lonely journey.  But I’m glad I did this trip (and will be going on my road trip this summer) to remind that I am not alone and I am part of something bigger than myself.

Every decision I’ve made in the past 4 years have be solely for track.  I’m glad I made this decision for me.

Tomorrow we have our tour of the gulf.  I will take pictures and blog about what I see then.  Good night!

 

USA Championships: Always Darkest Before the Light

26 Jun

Hey All,

If you are anything like me, then you are glued to the t.v. and internet watching USA championships.  This is my favorite time of the year!

Today was amazing to see Kara with a new American record in the women’s jav as well as some others with big PR and just overall great performances.  I would really like to congratulate Kara on all her hard work and hope that this opens up more and new possibilities for her (since I know she had some frustration with not getting into meets she wanted and was NOT the recipient of the Project 30 money from USATF even though now her picture is magically on the Project 30 page of USATF http://www.usatf.org/groups/HighPerformance/ lol .)

But anyway, onto my thoughts of this season and thoughts of my competition tomorrow.

Self Reflections:

Loree's throwing callus lying beside finger

My whole callus ripped off during throwing, I went down one ring size. So if you like it then you should put a ring on it.

The last few weeks have been good for me, building into this moment right here.  I’ve spent some time cutting back on lifting and focusing my training, trying to get the “old” Loree back and for the most part, my energy and strength is returning.  My appetite has returned too after a month of forcing myself to eat soup because I just couldn’t really eat.

My practices have been getting back, feeling closer, feeling like I have more energy and feeling that energy moving through my hammer.  The heat is something I thought I could deal with and enjoy, but when it reaches 110 there just aren’t enough clothes to take off or water to drink.  It’s just hot.  We also cut back so much on lifting as we peak, I feel like I haven’t done anything when I’m leaving the weight room after only an hour and a half instead of the almost 5 at times during the winter.

Our training has been really fun as our energy grows.  There has been a buzz at training the last few weeks as we prepare.  We laugh and joke more.  We even got in the most pathetic game of pool volleyball after training.  I feel like I was literally on the short end of the stick as I was competing with Vikas who is 6’10″ 290, Kevin who is 6’6″ 315, and Dan who is 6’5″ 320.  Suddenly my 5’6″ 182 (as of this morning) isn’t so intimidating!

But one thing that has been the best for me is what I playfully refer to as my soul searching.  I’ve spent some time looking up, around, trying not to spend too much time looking back, but mostly looking at myself.  The other week I was re-reading my blog from Olympics, remembering all the feelings I had experienced for the first time.  I looked at video of me throwing through the years and found old pictures from school.  (For the record, yes I weighed more in college than I do now and no I don’t appreciate someone looking at old photos and laughing at how fat I was.  Yes, Chester, I am talking to you.)

This time thinking was good.  I thought about why I loved hammer, why I threw, why I kept wanting to throw.  I thought about my goals, why they were important to me, and what it meant to me about hitting them.

Darkest Before the Light:

After my body just physically crashed about 6 weeks ago, after the disappointment of not being selected for the Project 30 money, after being ignored or denied the opportunities to compete in certain meets, and not feeling like I was building on my success from the previous year, I really looked at myself to see where I was and where I wanted to go.

At that moment, when I was looking at my season, at my choices, feeling like everything was spinning out of control, that is when I stopped being the victim of circumstances at that moment and became the victor.  That is when my throw, my destiny became my own.  I know it sounds funny that at the darkest part of my season, the most frustrating part is when I would became the most confident.  Why?  How?

Well in my last post I talked a lot about fear.  I had become so fearful of making a wrong decision, taking a wrong step, of failing, it had become paralyzing.  When Stewart wasn’t coaching full-time, I was scared where I would go, had no idea where I should live or with whom I could train.  When I didn’t sign any contracts or have the sponsorship to pay for my most basic bills, I feared where the money would come from and feared working multiple jobs again.  When I wasn’t PRing and breaking the AR in March, I feared that I would be dropped from development, that I wouldn’t get any sponsorship, that I would not get into meets or get funding.  I was afraid almost every major decision I was making might be the wrong decision.

Silly I know.  People see me and think, there is someone who has their stuff together, when really, I tried to fake it until I made it.

I have had successes, a good amount with my distances, making teams, winning championships, and yet I was still afraid to fail, that it wasn’t good enough yet.

So that’s why this year was good for me.  It was a year I faced my darkest fears.

  1. I completely changed throwing coaches and lifting programs and moved across the country to a town where I knew no one and have no friends.  I made the decision and did it.
  2. I over-trained physically learning the limits of my body and pushing it over the edge, and I survived.  I’m coming back and I’ve learned for next year.
  3. I didn’t get the Project 30 money or any other major sponsorship deal, and yet I’m still throwing and currently only a little in debt :) thanks to USATF Foundation, my club NYAC, and all the great support I’ve gotten for YOU.
  4. During the middle of my metabolic/nervous system crash  I competed and threw marks I threw my junior year in college 7 years ago.  I threw marks that hurt to know that was the best I had that day and yet, the apocalypse didn’t come. The earth abides.
  5. I changed coaches with two VERY opposite coaching styles and methods.  I went from being told “wind at this exact degree while standing at this angle” to “try to feel the connection on the start better.”  And even though it was a ROUGH transition, in the end, though it has taken me this whole year to find it, I emerge with a throw of my own, a new respect for my own understanding and talent.  I have more comfort and confidence in myself than I’ve had in years.

I went through all this and I’m still here.  Not only that, but I still WANT to be here.  Going through my worst fears, fears that have affected almost every decision I’ve made in my career, and coming out on the other side has given me strength and courage.  I go forth from this moment without fear because I already know the answers to what I feared the most.  I’ve struggled, taken steps back, fallen down, and yet I’m back up and still on the road to success.

Conclusion: Final Thoughts

I recently wrote an email to Doug Logan, it has yet to be replied to, but I know he is a busy man, but in it, I included a quote that I really enjoy.

“If you put a small value on yourself, rest assured that the world will not raise your price.”

For too long I have trained and competed waiting for someone to say that is good enough to deserve this or get that.  I was waiting for USATF, for Nike or Adidas, for someone ANYONE to tell me I was worthy now or deserving. I was waiting for them to raise my price.

But I’m not waiting anymore.  I know my worth and I know where I am going.  There are those who are with me, believe in me, support me, and there are those who just don’t or don’t care.  I am telling my worth, my value to this sport whether it be on the field or off (I’m the women’s throws rep in the AAC), no longer waiting to be worthy because I am worthy.

If you don’t want me to wear your name on my jersey, then you won’t have your name on the next AR holder.  If you don’t want me throw in your shoe, I’ll break in another companies.  If you won’t let me in your meet, then my mark will be seen in another.  I am saying it now, but soon these will be actions.  It starts as a thought, then becomes a word, and then finally an action.

I throw tomorrow and I feel good and confident.  I watched Kara’s last throw and her excitement as she broke the American Record and I have rehearsed the throw of my own in my mind many times for many years.   I’ve had some set backs this year, but I’m not focused on them.  Every day is another step closer and tomorrow is another day.

Thank you to all those throwers, coaches, and fans out there who have sent me their support!  It means so much.  And good luck to those who are on journeys of their own.  I know I get preachy at times, but I hope my experiences reach people out there and inspire them.  (Or at least spare them my blunders! lol)

 

Courage, Confidence, and Faith…

15 Jun

Okay, I think I might have painted a bleak (although 100% realistic and true) picture of throwing after college.  I got so many great responses from people outside of track, athlete’s, coaches, masters, juniors, collegians, open, it was very humbling.  We are in a sport of individuals and sometimes it can feel like you’re all alone out here and to know that so many are either going through the same thing or are helped by your words, it makes it not such a lonely road.

This entry I want to talk about things that have helped me get through the hard times and things that will continue to help me through the end.  I love quotes, so I hope you don’t mind that I share a few with you as I go along.  I read a lot of mental toughness and inspiration books too.

Picture of Bird's Nest from practice field

Amazing. View of Bird's Nest from practice field

Training:  (This is a training blog of sorts)

Training is starting to really pick up speed as I get ready for nationals and then after that, Europe.  I threw in a master’s meet last weekend because meets become so hard to come by and threw 67.85m which is a large step in the right direction.  My energy is coming back, confidence, and timing.

I’m staying mostly healthy right now and my nervous system is recovering.  It feels good to feel like a thrower again, like myself.  The last few weeks (few months!) have been really hard on me.   Right about now I wish I had a team or at least friends out here…

I’m looking forward to what the last two weeks will hold.  I’ve learned a lot about my self as an athlete this year, learned more about training, and just plain grew some tougher skin clawing my way to USA championships.

So anyway, back to the title  Courage, Confidence, and Faith.  I mentioned in my previous entry that you needed more than the desire for fame and money to make it in this sport, but I didn’t say what that more was.  There is a quote that goals without plans are just a wish.  And we all know a wish and $5 will get you Venti Frap at Starbucks.

Courage:

“Courage does not always roar.  Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, ‘I will try again tomorrow.’” –Mary Anne Radmacher

It takes a lot of courage to pursue a goal.  When you truly follow a goal there is a lot of sacrifice but mostly, you put yourself out there.  It’s a risk, a huge risk.  Imagine putting everything in your life on hold and dedicate every penny you have, your body, your time, your sanity to one single pursuit where the odds are not in your favor and the help is minimal.   Many will never know their potential in life because they lacked the courage to attempt or the courage to continue when things became bleak, they gave up too soon.

There were 596 athletes who became Olympians in 2008 in a population in the United States of over 307 million.  So when you set out to become, let’s say “just” an Olympian, your chances are 0.000001941368078175896 or about 1 in 500,00.  Not great.  But when you also set out to medal that gets even steeper.  There are 906  medals total in all sports in the 2008 Olympics and there are close to 6.7 billion people in the world…  The chances of snagging a medal are 1.3522388059701493e-7 .  Just putting things in perspective of what it means to have the courage to say, I will follow this dream.

You need courage to take the first step in pursuing your dream.  You need courage to look deep inside your self and discover what you are truly made of.  When you are down to your last $150, do you go home or hold out one more week?  When you’re hurt and the pain is unbearable, do you take one more throw or stop? When things are dark and you are not seeing the success you thought you’d have, do you quit?

It takes courage to pursue as dream, but real courage is when things do not come easy, when you have to fight, when you have to look doubt in the face and you still say, “I will wake up and try again tomorrow.”

Picking up the hammer after the Olympics took courage, a courage I didn’t know if I had.  The easy thing to do is to quit and use the old safety of “I tried”, complain  I didn’t get enough help, or pretend I was completely content with everything I had done in my career to help me get through looking back.  But it would have been a lie.  I pick up the hammer and continue to throw, continue trying out of courage.  I cannot fear failure, I cannot fear disappointment, I cannot fear not having help, I cannot fear unknowns, all I can do is have the courage to continue even if and especially when I am all alone.

Confidence:

Confidence is preparation.  Everything else is beyond your control.  ~Richard Kline

Once you have the courage to start your dream and courage to keep going however long it takes, you need confidence in yourself to continue through the dark times and propel you into success.  I’ve said before you don’t need others to believe in you to believe in yourself (but sometimes it would be nice to have that support too.)

Confidence is built up over time, over the off season, during the season.  It is built every time you focus at training.  It is built on little successes.  It is built when you leave everything you have at practice.  It is re-enforced when you walk into a competition knowing how hard you’ve worked and believing you are prepared, knowing you’ve worked harder, given more, and there is no doubt that you could be better prepared than you are at that moment.  There are no what if’s because you’ve done all you can do.

It’s this confidence in your program, in your coach, in yourself that gets you through the hard times.  It’s what tells you to not be afraid to give it all and leave it all.

People start this crazy dream because they believe they will be successful, but the loss of confidence in continuing to be successful is when they stop.  Even when things are tough for me, even when I am struggling, I believe down in my very core that I am an Olympian, that I am an elite athlete, that I belong with the top girls, that I will break the American record, that I will be an Olympic medalist.  Because I am confident in me, when bad things happen, I am not shaken.  I correct my course and keep moving in the direction of my goal.  My confidence allows me to use all my hard work to succeed.

Faith:

“You are either motivated by faith in your future or fear of the future.  Only one will result in success.”

I have a friend who is shot putter going through a lot of the same things as I am.  Zara shared with me her slogan she lives by, “Moving in Faith.” http://www.zaranorthover.com/ It is her faith in Christ and faith in her self that propels her forward through the darkest times.

I am not a very religious person but I too am motivated by faith.

What is faith?  There are definitions that simplify it as believing in something with strong convictions especially without proof or complete confidence and trust in a person or idea.  The kind of faith I am talking about is faith in yourself and what you are doing.  It goes beyond confidence and courage, though those are closely linked.

I believed I would be an Olympian before I even picked up a hammer.  Back in 1996 I watched the summer games in Atlanta and I knew I would one day be a part of that movement.  I knew one day I would stand on that medal stand with my country’s flag waving behind me and I would mouth the words to the national anthem.  Had I done anything up to that point to reinforce that belief?  Well, not exactly, I was a 20ft shot putter and 60ft discus thrower at that time.

My faith in myself and in my future propelled me and propels me still.

I like that quote I used for faith because it plays such a big role.  Sometimes I can lose sight of my goals when I focus on my fears.  When I’m not at my best, when I worry too much about how I will pay next month’s bills, where I will live, where I will train, how I will get over an obstacle, I can sometimes take my eyes of my goal.  There is a small shift, but an important one just the same.

I start training and focusing in fear of my future instead of faith.  My training takes on a sort of desperation that if I don’t do something, my worst fears will happen, I will fail, I will lose, I will fall on my face.  But when things are at their hardest, I need to have faith that everything I am doing is taking me closer to my goals.  It’s like playing to win as opposed to playing not to lose.

All three of these things constantly push me towards my goals and help keep me focused.  I use my courage to face any obstacle or doubt.  I build my confidence through my hard work and use it to face down Olympic gold medalist and record holders and tell myself that I belong.  And finally, I keep going, I continuing training even when I feel the world has turned their back because I believe in me and I believe in what I am doing.

Painting entitled Believe

My good friend Abby Vanwormer painted this for me. There is so much I love about this photo. She did a great job. I look at it every day.

There are only a few more weeks to USA championships and only two more years to the 2012 Olympics. What pushes you  and what keeps you here?